This sounds crazy and I do not know what force has drove me to where I am right now.
Me and the kids (aka Paddington and Cookie) bought one way flight to Bangkok! We packed our stuff (a total of 100 kg of our life in Kuala Lumpur), donated the not stuff we can live without, get the export and import permit sorted, signed a one-year lease agreement in a condo within expat area, and we hopped on Thai Airways. Extremely ballsy.
It was really just the 3 of us at the airport; of course with all the baggage we have too. It was 2 huge dog crates, 3 huge luggage, 1 human being aka me, and 2 dogs who are pretty much expected to do nothing.
I read all the process of things I’d need to do from checking in the kids, and then go to the other side of the airport for their security checkpoint, send them to the waiting area, and only then I could head to the immigration and my terminal.
I remember thinking on my way to the airport ‘if the dogs throw tantrum or will not stop barking, I will firstly be compassionate to myself, I know I have lots of push around, one thing at a time’.
Guess what? I was lucky in almost all aspects. We had 7 Thai Airways employees surrounded us, 3 different counters each with different check in for me, and they helped us all the way! My job was to stand there, handover a bundle of documents I am not even sure what’s in there, answer questions about what Paddy and Cookie like to do, and pay what I need to pay. On top of that, when they both are barking at the airport, no one made any complaint instead most people praise them as the cutest dogs with cutest barking, some even called them as behaving better than most dogs seen during airport trip.
I am still waiting for the right opportunities so all the uncertainties are still there, yet I am beyond grateful and excited with this move that we are making.
After what has happened in Kuala Lumpur for the past 2 years, from failed relationship to failed business, I finally move away. Leaving all the bad vibes behind. But, will be keeping the great memories.
The deals I closed, the clients I built great relationship with, the crazy experience I got to collect, the impossible I did, the flings I had, the awards I secured, and the way I finally fell in love with myself.
It is not the same as it was. I am not the same as I was.
I can happily claim that I am a better person.
In between all the uncertainties I am in right now, I feel the happiest and at ease. Yes, crazy.
But eventually like Demi Lovato and Olly Murs said ‘I won’t let this plane go down….I know this is heading in the same direction, that’s up!’.
May I be safe
May I be peaceful
May I be kind to myself
May I accept myself as I am
May I accept my life as it is
May I be surrounded with abundance
My mantra inspired by Self Compassion — The Proven Power of Being Kind to Yourself by Kristin Neff Phd
